Really feel like I am in a state of flux at the moment.
This weekend we had our little soirée at The Hollingwood Hotel which went extremely well, better actually than I expected what with Stoke being on as well. My Hour behind the decks was warmly received by the assembled masses and the feedback was excellent.
Background stuff — Out most weekends to various places and hear a lot of the regular stuff, they are popular with the DJ’s and the crowds, you can tell as the floor is always busy. (Hate the phrases ‘Easy stuff, Top 500 etc and all the other). Who am I to disagree?
I tend to steer away from that kind of stuff and play a bit, although not ‘Rare’ it is left somewhat on the back shelf. This weekend I played 2 or 3 that I absolutely adore and thought that people would love to hear but got a rather lax response. It made me think that perhaps I am out of touch with all this and would probably be better just hanging up the proverbial spurs and sitting back in my arm chair and listen to my IPod.
This is not me wanting someone to come along and give me praise or bolster my bruised ego with a hearty pat on the back etc. Yesterday afternoon, in an hour or 2 of reflection I considered putting my records up on E-Bay or Soul Source and washing my hands of it. I see why DT did this last year and it is becoming increasingly difficult to feel the motivation. It hurts inside but is it, as a lot of younger people say, time to let go the past and move on. Been doing this shit for 40+ years and never really felt this way. I am busier than I have ever been DJing wise so on the crest of a wave but still feel the need to wear a life jacket.
Is this just me or are others feeling it too?
By the way — don’t want snide little comments or people telling me I should try this venue or that venue. Have you been through this and come out the other side or just thrown in the towel?